Unbalanced

and so tonight I had an inspirational conversation regarding my blogging.  actually, it was a conversation with my hubby.  I mentioned something about my blog to him and he said…

“you are still doing that aren’t you?” 

well.  hmm ummm.

“yes.  but I haven’t posted in 2 weeks.  “

“Why?” he asked

“Well, time.  I just haven’t had the time.”

“Well, what are you doing?  Why can’t you take the time to blog once a week?”

Of course I turned to look around the room to validate that he was indeed talking to me and not some other blogging mama.  But no, it was me:)

And he in no way meant it condescending….he knows my life is super busy…but he was lovingly and confrontingly encouraging me to make it a priority again. So here I sit tonight.

But it did bring to light this whole subject of “balance” again.

I feel like I am constantly searching for it. 

But I did come to realize recently that I am way more balanced than I give myself credit for.

For example,

I always have as many dirty dishes as clean dishes. 

I always have the same amount of unfolded laundry as folded.

I always have the same number of unedited photos as edited.

I  have the same quantity of dust dinosaurs bunnies as children.

So indeed I have found the balance that I have been striving towards.  I guess it just looks different than I imagined. 

Looking at my balanced list, I am thinking that I really just need to strive for becoming unbalanced.  To have more clean dishes than dirty would be unbalanced, but desirable. 

And kids.  I always dreamed about having a “balanced” number of kiddos.  4 kiddos seemed perfectly balanced.  But holy cow folks…4 kiddos is throwing me.  2 threw me, BUT 1 and 3 seemed pretty easy.  So it’s the even numbers…the balanced numbers that have overwhelmed me. 

I discussed this theory with my husband that perhaps 5 kids would be easier than 4.  It’s that whole unbalanced thing. 

So who would’ve thought?  Those that claim to have found the “perfect balance” are not as en viable as you thought.

I’m thinking that becoming unbalanced is my new goal.